Friday, December 17, 2004

If I am a donut

If I am a Donut...I want to be a Boston Creme.... I am eating one right now...erkk..I am eating my own kind (if I am a donut la)....This sugar rush is bad for your sanity.Have a good weekend ,Guys...

Monday, December 13, 2004

Mickey Mouse could have been my colleague

During my final year in college, I applied for a job as a summer intern kat Disney World, Florida. I got the job!!! Only 5 people from my U got it. I think my advantage was language. In the form, I wrote that I could speak languages from different country...Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia and Brunei...hoping that whoever reads the resume has no idea whatsover about Asia. One of those rarest thing happened...I was so RIGHT. Well, I got the job didn't I? And I did not exactly lie...betul tak?
You should see the brochure...you'll be living in an apartment, fully furnished, fully equipped with swimming pool, tennis court, sauna...everything a young heart desire lah...
I did not go though...cause they gave me 1 week to move my whole entire life from Kalamazoo, Michigan to Florida. Where got time? I don't even have enough money to buy my plane tickets. And my cat..."Girl-Girl".. And my unfurnished apartment which is fully furnished by mua....and the list goes on...
A few months down the road, after summer, we went to Florida for vacation. Damn it was HOT! I got dehydrated the first day...fever and all. Duhh...and you expect me to work there for the whole summer...phew...I am one of those Puteri Lilin species, you know.
Moral of the story, when something happen, it happens for a reason.....and I am thankful that I saw the light at the end of the dark tunnel.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Happy Weekend

We are taking Amir for The Incredibles today. Thanks to Adik for the free tickets courtesy of Rangkaian Segar or lebih dikenali sebagai "Touch and Go"...rasanya lepas ni boleh dapat free Smart Tag pulak ke? Ahaks....Beri betis nak peha...dah bagi peha...jeng..jeng..jeng....Let's not go there.
To all my readers....Happy weekend. Hope you find something to be thankful for today. ....As for me, am thankful for the free tickets and the free time that I'll spend with my little family today.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Extreme Makeover

I watched Extreme Makeover few nights back. The homecoming part never fails to make my eyes watery...The surprise , the touching words....And the memang extreme makeover... ternganga a bit...Maybe they purposely make them look really bad ...without makeup and all to show the extremeness of the changes. I mean...some of them are quite hideous. Now I sound mean!!
And as I lay myself to sleep...i thought, do I want to have that chance? To change my face..to have slimmer tummy & thigh? Will it make my husband brush off a smile which is a little sweeter than mine? And without any hesitation, I am thankful...I love me just the way I am. Actually...I don't really mind if my husband terpana dengan sekuntum senyuman sebab I am always in his situation. Myself can't help it if Ako Mustafa smiled his lopsided smile...Aku pun terpeleot dan terkedu dan terpaku dan longgaq lutut....and the worst part..He was not even smiling at me!!!!! On TV aje....Sad case or what? Yeah..pathetic is more like it.

Hehehehhe...for the silliness in me and all of the above...I am thankful.

Friday, November 26, 2004

Lunch...

Went to Chili's for lunch today. Had a strip of medium well steak that I have been longing for since a couple of weeks ago.****sighhhh*** Heaven....
It comes with the ever delicious mashed potato ****Ida...you can only imagine***
Today, Me, Myself and I am very thankful that my keinginan terfulfill, gaji masuk on time and foremost...I am here...Happy Weekend readers....

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Eavesdropping is bad..

Can't help it because the conversation was on speaker phone in the next cubicle.
My colleague was speaking to the department secretary about his Annual Leave. He has 21 days left. 21 DAYS!!! Bloody hell!!! How can someone has so much leave left at the end of the year!! NO LIVE IS IT!!! ***grrrr**** Jealous..jealous...my conscience kept on chanting! Well hell bells!! Yes I am SO VERY THE..!!!!
As for me I only have 1 day left...... and my leave for the whole week before Christmas has been approved.. Might be going down to Singapore to take Amir to the Underwater World and maybe Sentosa Island.....for that I am thankful.*****now I am not so jealous anymore....;)

Monday, November 22, 2004

I feel stupid...

Was reading this Marie Claire magazine. Saw an outfit that I like..very much that I was contemplating on getting exactly that. The pumps was by Nine West..$180. Uhhhhhh...cheap for a Nine West. How come ah?Total outfit was $380. Was raving over it to my husband. Was prepared to dash to wherever I can get those. Was even thinking of using my savings for it.
After all those exciting thots, I kinda check the date of the magazine....JUNE 2002!!! and the worst part is,it's Australian's version of the magazine...Sheeeeessssshhhh ...no wonder la the pumps so cheap.
Heheheheheh...bodohnye aku...Thankfully, I am human enough to admit it. Duhh...but definitely human.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Do you really think I am that stupid?

Today, 4th day of Hari Raya, I am back at the office and guess what? I got an email from a Brunei Prince. He wants me to invest his RM 170 million he has in Malaysia.Aiyaaaa...this scam emails kan, do they really think people is thaaaaattt stoopid aaa? Dushhh...
Anyway, to all, Selamat Hari Raya yang ke 4.
everything went well this Raya, despite Megat being sick the whole week...today went for 2nd blood test. Amir dapat duit raya almost 300 +. Mak dia yang excited lebih. Oh..and me tested positive kena buatan orang. Ahaks..
For all that and much much more...I am thankful.
***The email***
>>> "Prince Hammed Bolkaih" 13/11/2004 01:14:48 AM >>>
Hello,
Assalamu Alaikkum
I am contacting you for an Urgent Business Transaction
and further explicit investment information about your
country.
I need you to read this email message carefully
because it is very imperative.
I am Prince Hammed W. Bolkiah, the eldest son of Prince
Jefri Bolkiah who was the former Finance Minister of
Brunei, located in the northwest of the island of
Borneo.
Brunei Darussalam is a small country governed
according to Islamic values and traditions by His
Majesty Sultan Haji Hassanal Bolkiah Mu’izzaddin
Waddaulah.
The country’s official name is Negara Brunei
Darussalam ("abode of peace"). It is a member of APEC,
ASEAN, BIMP-EAGA, and the Organisation of Islamic
States as well as the United Nations and the
Commonwealth.
I will save your time by not amplifying my extended
Royal Family history which has already been
disseminated by the international media during the
controversial dispute that erupted between my father
and his stepbrother, the sultan of Brunei Sheik Muda
Hassanal Bolkiah.
As you may know from the international media, the
sultan had accused my father of financial
mismanagement and impropriety of US$14.8 Billion.
This was as a result of the Asian financial crisis
that made my father company Amedeo Development
Company and government owned Brunei Investment Agency
to be declared bankrupt during his tenure in office.
Prince Jefri was relieved of his post as Finance
Minister of Brunei and was stripped of his
chairmanship post as head of the nation's
international investment arm, the Brunei Investment
Agency in February 1998. The Agency controls 13
companies & Brunei's overseas assets.
In July 1998 the Sultan barred trading by Amedeo when
the world's biggest corporate debt of US$14 Billion
came to light.
In September the 1998, the Sultan ordered an
investigation of the BIA by accountants KPMG after
the Brunei government alleged that "large sums of
money" had been misappropriated to companies
controlled by Prince Jefri.
The Sultan then asked the Bank of England to help
track down an alleged L28 Billion of state and family
funds said to be "missing".
On the 02/10/1998 Prince Jefri Bolkiah flew from
London in a private jet and was going to settle
matters directly with Sultan Hassanal Bolkiah.
Prince Jefri drove straight to his seaside palace at
Jerudong, about 10 miles south of the capital, Bandar
Seri Begawan. He was due to meet with officials of the
Amedeo Development Corporation and visit the sultan.
Relations between the Royals appeared to deteriorate
quickly. However, my father was kept under house
arrest, his bank accounts and private properties
including a crude oil export refinery & the sultan
also strip my father of control over three large oil
wells which were later confiscated by the sultanate.
Furthermore, during this unfortunate period i was
advised to evacuate my immediate family outside the
sultanate to avoid further prosecution from the sultan
and his security operatives, but before I could do
that I was placed under house arrest by the Sultan.
I have a Palm V hand-held computer from which I am
sending you this mail. Before my arrest, I went ahead
to dispatch the sum of US$500 Million in cash under
special arrangement into the custody of different
Private security and Trustee companies for safe
keeping abroad.
The money where splitted and kept in the following
countries in this proportion: US$50 Million is in
England, US$100 Million is in Spain, US$100 Million is
in Saudi Arabia, US$80 Million is in United Arab
Emirate and the balance US$170 Million is in Malaysia.
I am unable to reach my friends & associates whom
would have provided all the much needed moral and
financial assistance i require because my diary have
being siezed by my uncle Sheik Muda Hassanal Bolkiah
who is also the Sultan of Brunei.
Hence, I seek your good assistance to receive and
invest these funds into profitable investment in your
country to facilitate future survival for my family
abroad. I will compensate adequately for your strong
cooperation.
I am counting on your absolute confidentiality and
transparency while looking forward to your prompt
reply towards a swift conclusion of this business
transaction.

May Allah's blessing remain with you & guide on the
straight path, Amin.
Wassalam & Best regards,
Prince Hammed .W. Bolkiah
Brunei Darussalam.
NB: PLEASE GET BACK TO ME VIA MY MOST SECURED EMAIL
ADDRESS hammed_bolkiah@mmail.com

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Sampul Raya

Notice tak sampul raya la ni makin besar. Tension betoi aku sebab rasa intimidated by it. Sampul besar, nilainya kecik.
Thankfully, I realize then, it's not the value but the thought that counts. Seeing the kids joy when they received one....not to mention my joy when I received one..Ahaks!
Tahun ni the duit raya I am giving matches my Maxis sampul raya. Apa lagi...warna corporate Maxis lah.
I am thankful as I have the kemampuan to make a few kids smile this raya. And Sara especially as she's gonna get a bigger portion sebab puasa penuh.She's only 6 mind you with a 21 years old determination.

Monday, November 08, 2004

Me and my Gardenia

Buka puasa nowadays can be very EXPENSIVE. RM 75?? Makan apa tu? And how much can you actually eat? Macam aku ni minum air je dah meleret senyum…satisfied. Unless kalau lauk terhidang masak lemak ikan kering, udang masak sambal petai dan ayam goreng masak merah…macam last weekend kat rumah Zurie, that’s another whole different storylah…
Back to the RM 75++ buffet tu…what do they actually serve la??? Once my former boss belanja we all for buka puasa kat Mandarin Oriental. It cost RM 60++ per head. Ada kambing bakar, sushi , nasi dan lauk, sate…bla…bla..blaa…tak ingat oh..and one heck of a dessert spread.
Those used to excite me…not anymore.
Tadi aku buka puasa makan fresh white Gardenia bread dengan susu pekat…
Mannnnn….that was the ultimate kesedapan….
For that dirt cheap taste bud …I am thankful.

Monday, October 18, 2004

Root beer float

4th day of puasa. Ingatan kuat terhadap Root Beer Float A& W. **sigghhhh*** malu kat bebudak kecik yang posa.
Hubby just called. Kain untuk buat baju raya tak cukup 1 ½ meter. Tak cukup bidang...tskk..tsk...kena la gi Nagoya tambah kain. Minah potong kain tu kata 4 meter cukup...Laki aku siap second the motion lagi...Dushh..for both of you.
Adam kata dalam perut Mama ada baby....depress nye...bila la pulak aku nak berbaby baru...? If tak lalui ectopic pregnancy dulu, my baby would have been 2 months plus. And me...a proud mother of two.
Alamak dah nak start depress dah ni....better go now and try to colour my life a bit.....
Thankfully, now, I am a proud mother of 1...thankfully, 4 hari dah puasa berlalu, everything went well despite the occasionally bubble thought of Root beer float yang sungguh lazat dan menggiurkan.

Monday, October 11, 2004

The rest of the weekend

Received a 6 page translation job from May on Friday. Was suppose to finish it over the weekend. I did try very hard to do it on Saturday but the determination was abandoned half way as tumbling around wrestling with Amir, my little wrestler seems more fun. I let him win all the time. Perhaps I should let him lose once in a while so he knows that he cannot win all the time.
End up finishing the translation on Sunday. Had a splitting headache due to the night out to Uptown Pasar malam. Was back at 4 pm. Crazy husband I have. I complained that we never have a night out anymore and he brought me to a pasar malam. Hampeh..And they say woman complains...how la not to complain? Aiyoyoo..Was literally typing with one left finger as the other hand was used to apply pressure to my forehead.
Amir pour my newly bought shampoo (RM 25 a bottle to be precise) into the toilet. Erghhhhhhh....marahnya!! Why so expensive? because my hair drops profusely whenever my hair reaches shoulder length. How to be Mama Rock la like that?
May, my editor and my life long friend said I did ok with the translation. It could have been better if I could do the Translation Proses yang ke 3 -Penstrukturan.
All and all, everything turn out alright...for that I am thankful.

Annual Dinner-Oct 9th 2004

Quite meriah ...Different venue this year. No longer in the Mines Convention Centre. This year, Sunway pulak.
We forgot to assign someone to come early and reserve the table, so we all dapat table kat belakang. Luckily Azie & Herney yang tak berpuas hati pegi jadi PI menyiasat kat depan. 20 minutes later, we're sitting right infront of the stage, next to the VIP table. The only thing I regret is the mercun thing. Naik pokak den ...
Wendy was busy SMSing voting Jac for Malaysian Idol....using my phone!!! Nasib baik la phone bill tak pernah exceed credit given.How many did she sent? Let's just say till today, I am still getting the sms reply saying that "the voting is close, see you next year". Aiyoo...never buy a phone with the "Add Receipient" feature.
Harith Iskandar was the MC, he mispronounce Datuk Jamaluddin as Datuk Jalaluddin...too much of Astana Idaman I guess. And don't think he'll be the MC again...Fat chance...Ada ka...you pronounce the one and only Datuk Jamal in the entire corporate sector. Dushh..
Zahid, Zarina and Linda performed...they need more communication skill. Linda was pretty. I snapped a few photos and MMS it to my hubby. Zarina was surprisingly petite..or has she been losing weight?
Then Siti Nurhaliza was next. The crowd went wild. She started the show by thanking the VIP. She thank the Tan Sri-Tan Sri yang sudi hadir....The problem is, we do not have any Tan Sri in the house...just 3 Datuks..**sheeessshhhhh...** What a blunder. Tapi she can be quite spontaneous & funny.
Oh? Door gift this year, RM 500 voucher for MMS phone...yeah..and if I do get another one...I will have to spend about RM 1300 ++ to get a good one.
All and all...I am thankful I am working with one of the Top 10 companies in Malaysia. Alhamdulillah.

Sunday, October 03, 2004

Legaaa...

Hari ni habis exam for my Diploma In Translation. Weeeee......leganya. Woke up in the morning with a headache.One uphamol and a ghee tosei later, masuk dewan periksa. Ada pulak translation on headache. Without thinking I chose to answer that question, and dedicate it to my headache that morning. Another question was about CEO of the year.I dedicated that one to Datuk Jamaluddin Ibrahim, my CEO. Malas nak fikir bebanyak.
I don't know why I did this in the first place. Perhaps saja gatal nak menambah Diploma yang ada. Or maybe I need something new to do in my life. It was a good one though. I got to meet some new people whom I'd like to keep in touch like Sharlynna, Anwar and Shila. I got to see more of my long life good friend, May, whom I hardly see if not because of this class. And I rebond with my brother. Lynna, Anwar and Shila cracks me up..Lynna kabut, and her expression when she sat on her ringing mobile just to silence it will forever stuck in my mind. You see, the mobile is also on vibrate mode. Hehehehehehehehe...
Okaylah, dengan tak malunya aku mengaku I really wanted my name as the subtitlist in any of my favourite sitcom. There!! I've said it.
Ending this post in a thankful note...I am done with the translation course....

My Saturday..

starts with a nasi lemak kat depan 7-11,
then exam teori untuk translation. Apa beza shudder, shiver, shatter....erkk...
Habis awal and pegi Ampang Point sat. Bought Amir's car seat. Graco is the cheapest. Belanja Adik makan Kenny Roger's. Sebenarnya aku yang nak makan. Roped him in.
Ena called and tell me her misery. I gave her the best advise I could think of at that moment. You guys are already married, officially... the rest doesn't matter.
Petang, tolong Mama dengan demonstrasi masak. Mak Vanidah Imran came to teach Persatuan Cikgu Pencen masak tose. The ghee tose is exceptionally sedap.Amir charmed everyone by calling everyone Opah and Atuk. Ada gak yang nak jadi Auntie...hmm...whatever lah..
Petang melepek gila
Malam, keluar bayar Citibank. Banyak machine out of order. Paling sikit pun orang beratur ada 15 people. Arrggh...esok lah bayar.
As I was drifting off to sleep, I was thinking to myself, everything went quite well today..Alhamdulillah.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Penang trip.

Planning to use the RM 1K travelling voucher to go the Penang. Between me and Adik, we have RM 2K to spend. Been surfing for nice hotels that has been recommended by a few friends. Mama said that arwah Abah wanted to bring her to E&O Hotel...So Adik & I plan to stay there for a night. It's gonna be a surprise for her.Nganga kejap tengok the place in the net.Click here to view http://www.e-o-hotel.com/ .Then we are going to stay in Lone Pine pulak click here http://www.penang-hotels.com/lonepine/ . Am taking the promotion price for 3 days 2 night stay.
I hope we can make Mama happy and feel cherished. After all, she's the only parent we have now. I force myself not to think about Abah so much as it makes me sad that I did not spend so much time with him to show him how much I love him. Mesti dia bangga gila anak dia bawak dia jalan instead of the other way round. Tak terbalas jasa Abah bawak kami pi Disneyland dulu.He cried when I gave him my very first duit gaji. Sometimes I feel like I am the black sheep of the family, tapi sebenarnya aku la the apple of his eyes. Abah, I miss you..very much...
I have a loving father who loves me very much and in my every prayer I ask Allah to love him as much...for that I am thankful.

It's 7. 14 pm

And I am still the office. Had to request for a bill adjustment of RM 2,451.41 due to wrong contract takover. My Boss is going to freak out. **Urggghh..
Ever felt like packing your bag and leave? ***sighhh*** That's how I felt at the moment. I need to break free. Kak Nab called ajak pegi Jakarta during Christmas. Tempted? Of course!!! RM 49.90 from JB. What the heck..just drive to JB la..Hubby dah green light...dia pun dah speechless, malas nak kata apa..ikut je lar...
What about the trip to Aussie next year. Geezzz...can I afford it ke? Sounds tempting though, pegi dengan clown clown CPRian tu. Ida & Fid dah sure baby sitter bertauliah...hehehehehe..
Learn a new word last week.." pendebungaan"... That came from Norimae, my ex college mate kat ITMT dulu. He was wishing another ex college mate, Zafrul sebab baru kahwin. I thought it was hillarious. Been using it a lot in my e -conversation with Arie and Wawa.
How I wish Arie & Wawa are back together again. They seem to match and mismatched at the same time. Arie the serious chap and Wawa the care fee. They can be funny when they are cranky. And Boy they can be cranky..dah la tengah dok ganti posa. Oppss..that reminds me, I haven't ganti mine. Errkkk...
I am ending this with a thankful note, that I have a family to go home to..that I am not the one who is driving in that trafic jam..sorry Baby...Muakhh...

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Feeling blue...

I am feeling blue.. why do they say that? I think blue is a wonderful colour..Imagine a clear blue sky. Cantik, kan?
My hubby just called asking what is baju melayu mata lalat? Huh?? Telur mata kerbau aku tau la.
Mala called and she is beginning to feel comfortable at her new place.
Sewa 1 booth di Flea market kat BSC is RM 120. **Gulppp***Compared to the one in Ampang baru RM 20.
Sighhh*** I have nothing in particular to talk about....it's all about nothing and everything. People got Monday blues while I get everyday blues...
Nak makan tapi macam takde perasaan..tapi lapar...
More complain about the new service launched. But these mangkuks tak ikut instruction. Rasa macam nak rejam diaorang dalam toilet bowl and just flush them away. wonder where they will timbul.??Hmm...something to ponder..

Hmm....today being the cranky me, I am thankful that I am here.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Dagang Pak Malau

Kajang Pak Malau kajang berlipat
Kajang hamba mengkuang layu
Dagang Pak Malau dagang bertempat
Dagang hamba menumpang lalu...

Herney pecah kepala trying to figure out the pembayang. Duhh....tak reti-reti lagi search kat Internet. Pantun Melayu pun ada la dalam situ.

Hai la Pak Malau, sayu la pulak pantun ni...tapi buat aku rasa macam nak makan sate..isshhh...masalah betul la word association ni...Adik, Ida...aku akan tau if you read this blog sebab you're gonna call me for Sate Zaini kat Ampang Jaya tu. I order you to!! On me...
I am thankful I have friends and enough funds to belanja them....

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Merdeka weekend update

29th August 2004
Jawa kahwin. Alamak lupa nak bawa baju kurong for it. Dushh...had to wear that yellow kaler yang berkain terbelah..haven't worn it for ages.Terpaksa la jalan macam baru lepas beranak sebab nak menjaga tata susila.
Sent SMS to Ida PD, sampai kat Ida Maluri instead. I am such a doink these days.
30th August 2004
Lupa nak bawak shirt for work. Another dushh..
Took the commuter from Seremban to work. Try not to tertidur tapi tewas juga, sedar-sedar ada kesan lipstick kat tangan..hopefully I did not embarrass myself, but what the heck, half of the gerabak is sleeping. I don't think they care.
Sampai office realize I left my security tag & name tag pulak..**sighhh***
31st August 2004
Selamat Hari Merdeka. Back to KL. Tertinggal susu Amir pulak. Mannnn..what's wrong with me!!!
1st September 2004
Adik meracun untuk ke Cherating. I am so tempted!!
Thankful for I am only human and selalu kalut..nobody expect me to be perfect..

Friday, August 27, 2004

Leaving On a Jet Plane

A good friend of mine NA, dapat kerja baru...she felt like singing "Leaving on the Jet Plane" (sah-sah penangan Linda from AF2)...but the only lyric she knows is the tajuk itself..
So, by the power of Internet, aku pun search, and cut and paste for her."Leaving On A Jet Plane"
Courtesy of www.azlyrics.com

I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.
But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn.
The taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn,
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry.
[Chorus]
So kiss me and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again -
Oh Babe, I hate to go.
There's so many times I've let you down,
So many times I've played around,
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing.
Every place I go, I'll think of you,
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you,
When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring.
[Chorus]
Now the time has come to leave you,
One more time let me kiss you,
Then close your eyes, I'll be on my way.
Dream about the days to come.
When I won't have to leave alone,
About the times I won't have to say ...


Good luck & Congratulations, my dear. Syukur Alhamdulillah, I am thankful you got the job. You deserve it. Now, nyanyilah sepuas hati...



Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Other Blogs...

I normally started my day by coming a little bit early to work, on the internet and read blogs. Normally aku start dengan Adik punye..http://www.mawarhamzah.blogspot.com/ sebab the blue colour always seems to make me a little bit ceria...Adik rajin dok tukar blog skin dia..tapi dah agak lama tak diupdate...busy la tu..
Then I'll go on and read http://donababygurl.blogdrive.com/. This girl is funny, very expressive and spunky. I might not agree with a few of her sentiments but what the heck..its her blog, her right...aku ni dok baca je and enjoying it pulak lagi. Then aku akan baca http://gongkapas.blogspot.com/ by Dina Zaman..Yang ni lagi pecah kepala,, lawak gila. She's my favourite writer few years back. She has her own column, Dina's Dalca in NST. Every Tuesday if I am not mistaken. She used to make me laugh...and that makes others wonder what's so funny in a news paper. I think I need all these carefree readings. Bila aku baca the happenings in the world, aku depress. It is so easy to fall into that pit hole. I read somewhere that the most chronic penyakit in the future will be stress. Oh, read her "Berasmara Dengan Hantu Raya" jugak..ada link in her blog..meremang bulu roma..
Others yang aku baca, Azman's, Adik's hubby..very technical...Fahroe's..can be technical also..and the latest to my addition is a blog by Jemima Tagal....anak Dr Judson Tagal who perished in the helicopter accident in Mount Murud. http://www.xanga.com/skin.asp?user=jemmtt Sedih..I sat in front of my PC with tears streaming. Her words touched my heart...it's hard to lose a father. It's harder when it's so unexpected..Masa Abah pergi dulu, we've known 3 months in advance. The "Motor Neuron" is not cureable. And when he died, I felt relief..I can't bear the helplessness, the sadness and the pain. He is in good hands now.From a healthy man, who walked everywhere, he turned into a very skinny person, who can't talk and move. The only thing that he can move himself is his eyes...and those eyes...Ya Allah, maha berat penghapus dosamu. If only I can hug him one more time...
I am thankful, I had the chance to be engulfed in his love for 28 years...to receive his wonderful letters when I was away from home, to know he is the only one who remembers my birthday when the rest don't, to share his kacang goreng in front of the TV while watching"Golden Girls", to have him married me to my hubby...Compared to all the anak yatim yang mungkin tak ingat atau tak merasa langsung kasih sayang seorang Ayah..I am the lucky one....for that..I am thankful.

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Two nights in Bangkok...

***sigh*** I am back from Bangkok. Pheww…penat. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. The night before the trip night as usual I get jittery over leaving home. What if the plane crashed? Who’ll take care of Amir? And who’s going to clear up all my junk at the office? Time tu la terfikir tak buat wasiat la, tak leave details of Amir’s inheritance la…me and my worries. So, I’ll do what I usually does when I am nervous..aku basuh toilet. Sometimes I’ll let the slimy green thing grow so I can scrub them away when I am stressed. It helps as it feels like I eliminated my problem along with it. Nahh…don’t bother to understand… it’s one of my eccentricity.
Kat Airport, I tried out the automatic immigration lane. The screen said “sila letakkan ibu jari di pengimbas”, aku mati-mati la ingat on the screen itself, rupanya kat tepi the machine. Kechut noticed my “Perhakness”…kena gelak lagi.
Oh, the Air Asia flight took 2 hours 10 minutes to Bangkok. Masa dah settle down dalam flight, suddenly they announce “Ms So-and So..please identify yourself to the crew”..I was like “Huhhh?? What did I do?” Mala & Kechut dah start gelak, B pun boleh sengih tengok aku gabra, “If I go, you guys are coming with me!!!” Heheheh..rupa-rupanya, my tag from the hand luggage tertanggal kat depan pintu. Well, that’s my 5 second fame la kononnya.
Bangkok was not as hot as the last time I was here. Our hotel was quite far from the ‘shop till you drop’ area. Patut la murah….hampeh betoi! Takpe…next time, I will not stay at Amari Atrium. Indira Regent, Baiyoke Skyview and Amari Watergate is really good. Kak Puteh, an entrepreneur we met said Bombay Palace is good hotel too as it is very near to a masjid, turun hotel dah ada Muslim Food. Noted. Makanan memang banyak, tapi when they sell it together with the piggly wiggly…punah.
Chactuchak, the weekend market was one heck of a place. Truly amazing and fascinating. Aku paling enjoy kat kedai DIY for craft. Lepas ni ada la kengkawan dapat handmade card. From the short description in the tour leaflet, it has 15,000 registered gerai. Jaw dropping tak? Aku rasa, aku lalu kat 100 gerai je kot. Mala pun mata jadi macam guli.
I did not shop that much, …chewaahhh…Yea ke? Macam in denial je? Muahahahahaha….Ada la sikit…tapi Kechut…memang Kechut, dia beli 1 t shirt Hard Rock Bangkok aje.BTW, HRC kita 10 kali lebih happening dari theirs. Laki aku pun beli satu seluar yang lepas dicuba di hotel, does not fit him really well. But then again, we bought things for their family..so they cannot claim that they did not get anything because we bought it for them? Betul tak? Anything to get rid of the guilt.
Oh! Our ½ day tour ended at this kilang gem stone. Waduh..gorgeous-gorgeous sungguh..nasib baik tak terbabit. Tapi aku ngan Mala, instead of looking at the display, we all sibuk dok ikut another tourist checking out her Green TODS handbag. Gorgeous gila…If Adik ada ni, she’d probably salivating over it together with us. I checked a website selling TODS handbag at work today. The one we were salivating over is made from deer skin (YOU KILLED BAMBI!!!)…USD$549.*****Gulppp*** I am okay with Calf skin sebab I love steak…but deer?? Well I hope they killed the deer for the meat and not the skin……. I told you I am a bit demented..my thought strays..I can’t help it. Plus, I cant’ afford a USD$549 handbag. Earth calling Shamm..
Alhamdulillah, I am back..safe and sound. With this trip, I realize how thakful I am to actually have the money to travel overseas even though with tight budget, to buy things that my heart desire (not all but I am thankful), to know that Mala & Kechut will be a long time travel companion, I have a Mom who is willing to look after my son while mak dia pergi berpoya-poya, jumpa Kak Puteh who is forever willing to show us a few tricks and traits in business, and that all my thoughts before going to Bangkok did not come true..you know..the plane crash and all…Takoottt..I could go on, but it’s almost 1 and I need my sleep so I can stay calm while a purple dinosaur dancing about tomorrow. That’s right…am taking Amir to Barney show tomorrow. It’s a date…lengkap dengan a trip to Mc Donald.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Thankfulme..the great explorer with great findings

Ohh..ohh...lupa nak cerita about my exploration last week. I was exploring my..errr...how do I say this without sounding like a control freak...Okaylah!..Okaylah!...I was exploring my husband's handphone!!!! Don't ask me why...I won't go into details...but I discover something that makes me smile till today and looking him in a whole new way with doey eye..and whatever mushy thing they call it lah...He has a folder in hi Inbox especially for all my SMS that I have sent to him.. *****sighhhhhhhhhhhhh.....**** macam sweet ,kan? Are you guys sighing along with me??? I have been floating in the air ever since...my feet never seem to actually touch the ground. It makes me feel cherished and all the tears and anger seems not to matter. The power of love and affection stills WOWW me. He might not be the perfect man..but he is perfect for me. Read somewhere that bila you bercinta, you tutup sebelah mata, and bila you kahwin, you are suppose to tutup dua-dua belah mata...I guess that is kind of true..not all the way la..ada certain things that we have to give and take.
Dulu masa baru kahwin,aku selalu wonder, what my life would be if I married my ex BF...Allah SWT is great..he answered my question.The eye opener came when my Dad passed away. My husband was there, angkat my Dad's body, lovingly, he sat next to Abah and recite a whole juzuk of Al Quran. That moment, I knew he is THE ONE for me.....and if you ask me when is my MOST THANKFUL MOMENT, ...that's the one. (Oh, lupa nak mention my ex BF was Chinese.)
To my husband, M.A.H.M.I...I love you with the breath, smiles, tears, of all my life! -quote by Elizabeth Barret Browning. And for that...I am THANKFUL.

A week's update

Life is so very the hectic this week!!!! I can't believe I manage to drag myself through it. I have been neglecting calls and emails hellos from friends. Please pardon my rudeness. Dah la Performance evaluation pun this week. Going to Bangkok also err...tomorrow. HARRAMAAKKKK! I haven't pack..I haven't change money..I need my luggage from Adik!! * Breath in..Breath out..breath in...breath out...****
My week started badly with a slight fever and puking and bloating and perging. Funny, I don't get all this sickness during my pregnancy but with 3 bijik cempedak goreng I got all the morning sickness symtom.... My floor started to speculate on pregnancy AGAIN!! Oh well, whatever...Aku kerja jugak sebab macam segan nak ambik MC on Monday..so that I was, moping around the floor..melepek...
Tuesday, Wednesday...breeze through without a trace..Thanks to Actal supplied by Ruba.... with Account Managers walking in and out with more wrong information. Albert is for ever blur..rasa macam nak tokak kepala dia, ludah masuk dalam toilet and flush...but how do you that to a person who wish you to have a nice day???!!!
I will have to pen off here and carry on with my task..I'll see you people next week. Please doakan no birds or ayam sneeze kat aku and gang di Bangkok nanti.
Today, I am thankful that I have survived another week of pain in my own shoes. I am thankful Amir dah pass main Level 1 Prince of Persia and he stops bugging me to play it for him. Am thankful for "Friends" VCD so that I can watch them over and over again. Am thankful May got a translation job with Microsoft...Thankful that I am genuinely happy...happy..happy..happy and thankful.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Hospital...

Ramai pulak yang masuk hospital minggu ni. Zurie kat Ampang Puteri, Ayra di Selangor Medical and Sara di Seksyen 9. Semalam masa visit Ayra, she lost almost 3 kg, nampak kecut je sebab dehydrated. Jeff looked stressed. I would have hugged him if he is my own cousin...well..he is my cousin..by marriage tapi kena sendiri ingat la, bukan budaya kita. The boy next to Ayra cried when the nurse came to ***i have no clue what she did..tapi ada bunyi macam hissing sound. Air mata aku dah nak keluar dah dengar budak tu nangis, tapi sebab ada ornag keliling aku buat kayu je la..kalau Amir, aku dah melalak dah kot. Sara dah balik rumah, kesian dia, masa birthday party dia pun she looked very sick. Zurie, as usual sakit pun boleh buat lawak dia. Macam tak sakit..tapi sakit..
Betul la, sakit tu adalah untuk mengingatkan kita to be very thankful. I am thankful that Amir is a very healthy boy..naughty..but healthy. Aku pun Alhamdulillah, the only time merasa masuk hospital masa give birth kat Amir dan masa operation ectopic last year. 
Okay, I hope to have a good weekend this week. Esok pagi ada delivery of 40 helium latex balloon, no clue on how am I going to manage, tapi Insya'Allah everything will be well. Malam ni jumpa Kak Cik kat rumah Jit. Malam ni hopefully Mas or Nurul terkeluar....

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

The warrior in me..

Semalam neighbour aku kena rompak. Kurang ajar betul all these penyangak. Aku tengah dok tengok Gilmore Girls and talking to Herney on the phone at the same time when I heard the scream. aku jenguk dari tingkat atas and saw a guy dok menggawang-gawang pisau. Lepas tu neighbour lain started to scream and that man went off. Bila mangkuk tu lalu depan rumah I tried to get the plat number tapi nampak WKE je. Mungkin gak dia pakai plat palsu. Kalau tidak penyangak tu kena beli buku "Penyangak For Dummies 101".I ran down and told B. By the time dia keluar neighbour lain dah ramai yang ada. Dari siasatan laki aku yang telah menuju ke tempat kejadian, that lady baru balik, parked her car outside. As she was coming out from her car, a guy came with a motorbike. Being cautious, dia masuk balik and locked the door. Mamat tu berhenti konon nak tanya jalan. When she ignore him, dia bukak helmet and whacked the mirror. Pecah berderai cermin kereta tu. Then he started to threaten her with the knife.
Dalam sibuk semua neighbour dok kecoh, Tan Sri Lee Lam Thye balik. He called the police and within less then 5 minutes depa sampai. Tak tau la sebab device baru yang Polis dok pakai tu membuatkan mereka lebih cekap atau sebab Tan Sri yang call. 4 bijik kereta police datang. Belum lagi SB SB yang naik kapcai. Amir was having a field day as he is forever facinated with police car especially when the lights are on.
Malam sebelum tidur, aku dok imagine, kalau la masa kejadian tu aku baru balik, in the car, driving by, apa akan aku buat? The warrior in me said, kita langgar the mangkuk hayun and save the day. Dibuatnya mamat tu turn and serang aku? Or if he died bila aku langgar dia? Harramak...Camna ni?...Kata si pengecut in me, Kita hon kuat-kuat bagi penyangak tu terpekak dan alert orang lain. He might still turn and serang me..Then aku boleh langgar dia and plead self defense. Jeng..jeng...okay..I'll settled for that. Mesti bangga Tok Nenek Bugis aku sebab cucu dia berani. Fatihah untuk mereka yang telah tiada.
Lastly, today I am thankful that I was not in my neighbour's shoe.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Thank you..

Dear Fahroe, thank you for putting up my link in your blog....I feel so honored that you actually spend some time to read my thoughts for the day. You too Adik. I am so thankful that someone out there thinks I am quite special;p
Hari ini ada visitor dari CCAM datang untuk melawat our workplace. Rasa macam ikan kat Aquarium Langkawi la pulak. Kalau aku hidupan laut, sah-sah aku jadi dugong. Takde contestant punyelah.! Dah ramai jugak orang datang visit sini, dari Telco Vietnam pun ada, Maybank Airport Malaysia dan a few others, dah lost count dah. Dan tiap kali diaorang datang, tempat aku macam spotless. Habih tak jumpa carik barang...tension betoi.
Bought new tickets for the Barney Show already.The good available seats hanya on weekdays pagi. Demi Amir, aku beli aje and applied for leave on 03/08/2004. Tiket lama dapat jual kat Shila's office mate. Anything goes, as long as I can spend some quality time with Amir. If I go, I want him to remember me as a cool mother. He is becoming more like me...semalam Opah dia cakap kat our helper to potong kepala ikan kering..here's how the conversation goes, " Imas, kamu potong kepala ni sebelum goreng" said Opah Amir sambil tunjuk kat kepala ikan kering. Tiba-tiba ada suara sumbang dari belakang, "Jangan..jangan...jangan potong kepala Amirrrr..." Huh? Helper aku gelak sampai tersandar kat pintu. Aku pulak macam speechless sebab lost camna he can come to that conclusion. Opah dia dah merah muka la gelak. ****sighh** Amir..Amirr..Priceless moments in my life...for that I am thankful.

Monday, July 19, 2004

Burpp...Alhamdulillah

Lesson learned today...nasi campur and milo ais does not blend well together. Jenguk keluar tingkap dari Level 11 ni ke luar, cuaca agak terang..malas lak nak jalan gi Central for lunch.Panehhh..ala ala lilin gitu, lagipun sorang..lagi boring. So gi Food Court KLCC. Tak serik serik akan kemahalannya. Aku ambik satu telur rebus, half telur masin & sepotong nenas. Rm 5. Errr...kira ku tolong bayar sewa la kot. Whatever la asal convenient to me. Lepas makan baru beli air...air milo nampak lazat semacam je...terus beli...combination of it buat aku rasa nauseous. Ni kang mesti budak office ingat aku pregnant lagi. Jawapan biasa aku..."nope..I am just fat"..muka senyum, dalam hati terbakar!!!!! Tapi ada gak advantage dia, bila aku naik LRT, ada orang bagi tempat duduk. Should I be insulted or grateful? I chose the latter.
Hari ni kerja banyak, tapi untuk meceriakan Black Mondayku, aku ambik time off to update this blog. Macam theraphy juga menulis ni.
Tadi pegi Bank nak buat cashier's cheque untuk beli ESOS. Alhamdulillah, nasib baik la ada menatang ESOS ni, boleh jugak tolong aku bayar credit card aku. Lepas ni makcik akan menginsafkan diri dan tidak menggunakan credit card secara berleluasa lagi. Lepas semua ni dah berbayar, aku nak enjoy myself knowing that I am a little bit richer than I used to be...and a little wiser...it still won't make me buy my Aigner idamanku, yang aku akan beli kalau simpanan ada 5 angka di belakang initial angka pertama. Okay, I had to read that twice to understand that.  x00,000 gitu.
Wish me luck , people..financially. I am thankful today, knowing that ada orang lain lagi susah dari aku...dah la susah, tak sedar lagi diri..lagi la susah..Have a great week ahead of you!
 

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Oh Aigner...

Dah lama bag Aigner menjadi idaman kalbu.Tapi the thought of separating from RM 4K for just a bag yang orang akan still ingat imitation...isshhhh..tak masuk akal...dan hilang akal jugak!!! My mom will give me that sad look , what have my daughter become into...tak sanggup aku bila mama bagi taht dissapointed look. Rasa macam tak guna hidup. Tak pe...satu hari yang tenang, masa duit aku berkepok, kepala gabenor in purple tertonjol tonjol keluar dari poket aku, lepas aku sure zakat semua dah berbayar..maybe I will consider.Jangan kata bag Aigner, bag Prada pun aku beli jugak..siap beli untuk Mama and kawan-kawan lagi..Boleh? Oh and Kak Nab tu!! I promise her Ferragamo sepersalinan. Fuyoo...best kan cakap merapu ni?Aku dapat free lecture semalam masa kat Boutique Aigner tu.Rupanya Etienne Aigner kat States dulu tu , a company bought the trademark then buat their own product. Originally it came from Germany. The one kat KL ni falls under Aigner where all the goods are made in Italy. Kira yang kat US tu ala-ala korok la.*** satu pengajaran tu. Today pegi meeting Mindef. Quite interesting people I met. Colonel Adnan & Colonel Zainal. Cl Adnan is drop dead funny. Tapi diaorang hidang nescafe O. Harramakk..camna ni? Aku tak minum..tolak pelan je kat Ita suruh dia habiskan..lepas meeting, terlompat lompat makcik tu nak pi toilet. Today, I am thankful my migraine semalam dah hilang. Tonite, kena start dengan projek buat Sara's palm tree from styrofoam. Huh? HAhahahahah....my thought exactly! It's for her coming birthday party...Lilo and Stitch theme...Signing of...

Monday, July 12, 2004

Salah time zone....

Baru notice my very first blog was dated on 11 July 2004...hari birthday aku la tu..rupanya blog aku ni salah time zone. Dah cuba nak tukar tapi macam nak kena concentrate, aku abandon dulu part tu..small matter lah. OH! More things to be thankful today...my colleague kat office hadiahkan wallet Esprit. Perfect timing..perfect gift. Wallet aku yang B bagi as hantaran kahwin dulu dah terkoyak..dia pulak yang terkoyakkan..so tak la rasa guilty. Come to think about it, aku lagi suka istilah wallet dari purse...purse sounds so girl-girl. Macam "auntie-auntie" gitu...memang la aku seorang auntie kepada Ayra, Suraya, Zulaikha, Tasya and Mira ..not to mention Sara and Adam, dll tapi macam tak la ready nak jadi betul-betul auntie...*** self denial***

At the moment aku tengah macam hyper gila...Truffles tu ada alcohol ke hah? Should check the fact later...I cannot even stop shaking my leg..fidgeting jangan cerita la.Aku dah habiskan truffles yang Adik bagi tu. I love the box!!! Aku telah share dengan semua office collegue yang ingat birthday aku.

Another thing to be thankful for.....the BAT job dapat extension!!!! Yayyyyyyyy...gumbiranya....leganya...

****sighh..***I am so blessed..banyak sebenarnya bende to be thankful for..Rasa macam floating...from being thankful or from the truffles...aku tak sure , yang pasti I am feeling very happy at the moment.**Grinning till my head is spinning***

Heheheheh..malam ni akan berusaha untuk menghabiskan the rest of the 9 pages...malam esok, aku boleh tengok Wild Card and Gilmore Girls, then Samarinda......I am so thankful that I was born in this zaman...thankful for Astro and Channel 8....thankful for Ako Mustapha yang buat aku tergolek dog bila dia sengih lopsided smile dia..ok, itu another story of the morning glory..I am rambling dah...will stop so that whoever reads this will be thankful that I stop...

I am thankful....

It was my birthday yesterday...Dah 27 tahun dah...err..for the past 6 years...;p For the rest of the day I was doing the translating job for BAT...naik biol dibuatnya. Conclusion is, I am not very good at this...lucky thing I have a good editor...Should tell her she should not pay us accordingly sebab she's doing most of the job..Erkkk..Pedihnya kenyataan ini.Been sitting in front of my laptop for almost 5 hours..baru page 7!!!! What the HELL!!! Unproductivenya aku!!! Wanted to cancel my birthday dinner tapi macam tak sampai hati sebab everyone is looking forward to it. Pukul 8, Adik kata B is taking me aje.. OKKKKKKKK..something fishy dah ni? Dah la B pakai baju lawa semacam je, siap gosok lagi. Dia pakai baju putih ZENS yang aku beli last month.Wah...gorgeousnya lakiku..macam back up singer M Nasir....(kalau aku cakap macam M Nasir nanti korang kata aku tipu...aku pun rasa yang aku tipu).Kat Sg Besi, aku tanya nak pegi mana, he said balik seremban sebab Kak Nab & Jo dok tunggu. HAHH!!! Biar betul?? Tapi sengih dia semacam aje...Wow..the other side of my darling...Lepas tu he turned ke Jln towards, the Istana Negara..AMPUN TUANKU..sah..bukan balik Seremban..tak kan pi Bellamy kot?? Hampehnyee..Then we passed Jln Bellamy exit to Jln DBP tu, aku tanya lagi..nak gi mana ni? Sengih lagi...iskk..iskk...Tak Tahan Lagi!!! Then he belok masuk Tupai-Tupai...Aku terus teringat kat Adik sebab ni tempat favourite dia. Siap scan the parking lot lagi..cari RIO. Takde pulak...Masuk je tempat tu aku dengar "pstt..psttt...." pusing kiri nampak Lan...oh..aku dah dapat agak dah...tapi masih tak boleh recover lagi keterkezutan...mixed feeling...exited..terharu...touched..sama la tu kan? The food was good...especially the tofu..it was meant for the kids, tapi mak budak nampak dan mak budak rasa terliur..lalu mak budak makan...Sorry Sabrina, Auntie nampak macam sedap je..lagipun Sabrina sibuk jadi Power Ranger menyelamatkan dunia.
Present aku, Shawl warna biru..Thanks Ida,ohh...jelitanya aku...Truffles from Strudels...sedap gila.., jade bracelet from Ida...thank you...muakhh.., 3 tudung baru dari Mala...I am wearing one of it now..thanks dear...
That's the reason why I chose to start my blog today..to express how thankful I am to have these beautiful people with beautiful heart in my life...Aku tau aku tak perfect, tapi they love me anyway.
Itu belum lagi masa kat kelas last Saturday. May bought me a book on Rubber Stamping..which aku dok drooling over it...so kalau sesapa tengok buku tu dan ada patches air yang dah kering..you might not want to imagine or think about it too much...Shila bought me a cheese cake and a mug filled with chocolate...emmmmm... Thanks guys..for being so thoughtful.
Pukul 12 malam, aku dapat 2 kad dari B. dari dulu sampai sekarang, dia akan tetap dapatkan aku kad Hallmark...just because my remark years ago that I love them. Thanks sayang...I know he chose them carefully sebab the wordings akan ring a bell on something that happens between us.*****sighhh*** No such thing as he loves me he loves me not...memang dia sayang kat akulah...
Lepas tu bertubi tubi aku dapat SMS Birthday message. Thanks for thinking of me...Ena, Norman, Ruba, Elaine, Cynde, Andrew..siap buat lawak lagi, Sue, Yatt, Herney,Adik, Fid, Ida, Zurie.......Adik aku sendiri came to my room to wish me..dia pun dok tergolek dog baut translation BAT jugak. According to May, he is progressing well, unlike me..Yeah..I know that...he's smart, tapi malas nak guna tenaga pemikiran aje..
Mama wish me in the morning masa aku dok sibuk baca paper Pancaindera (that's what Sunday morning is all about..the paper I mean..)Oh...siang tu, Mak Mentua aku pun call dari Seremban tu wish me ...fuyooo...menantu hantumu terasa disayangi. She is soo sweet..

Untuk semua yang berlaku...I am so thankful...