So and so...

I volunteered for M**** Community Bridge yesterday at Malaysian Blind Association. Entah kenapa everytime when I am pregnant, I tend to nak volunteer. Masa Arif dulu, I volunteered for the Tsunami Drive dengan PBSM. Oh? Did I tell you that I am pregnant? Yeah...I am pregnant. 22 weeks kot. Konon nak buat surprise macam Azah...tapi she's somewhere across the continent while I have to meet you guys every other months....camna nak sorok? Besides, I wanted Fina to be in the lime light.
There you go....Phew!!! Lega...
Anyway, the event went well. I was suppose to be the usherer for the contestant...tapi sebab terlalu ramai volunteer, I was ushering the usherer la pulak. We pretty much don't have to be involved sebab the 3rd party people was doing an excellent job. My fren got to usher Datuk DJ Dave, Freddy Fernandez and siapa tah lagi sorang....I pestered her to pass my resume to Freddy to pass to his brother...Nyehh..nyehh..nyeh..kidding..kidding!!! Entah apasal 'tah, cam teringin nak kerja ngan Air A***. Maybe nak match the tshirt dengan my new Crocs Sandal kot.
About 5, I think because of the heat (and tak lunch), i almost passed out. Nasib baik ada one girl urut tapak tangan, for blood circulation or something and it worked. I drove myself home..with the help of Fruitella and Mentos.

Finally....My very own Crocs

A short retail therapy session brings me to this. Tapikan....yang
Disney ni macam amat kiut, kan?

"Pick Me, Choose me, Love me"

"Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me."

You guys should try watching "Grey's Anatomy". It's on NTV7 every Tuesday, 8.30 pm.

Masihkah ada cinta?

I went to a CNY open house once and one quite elderly uncle was staring at me. He finally and charmingly spoke to me…He said I looked familiar and he thinks he has seen me on TV. I pun dengan penuh demure dan merendah diri kata” Nolah Uncle…you must have gotten the wrong person.”

The same day, a friend’s BF remarked that I do look like one actress. Dengan penuh kembangnya, I Tanya, “Oh really….macam siapa?” Dalam hati yang penuh bunga carnation, sunflower dan chrysanthemum tea , I was thinking, “ Wardina ke?” (dia kan macam amat comel…) and the guy dengan penuh perasaan sincere menjawab…”Rahimah Rahim”

Perggghh…..have you ever seen a flat dry frog on the road…most probably crushed when it was crossing the road?…. That’s how I felt.

She is a singer cum actress from Singapore.

Here’s a song by her…

Masihkah Ada Cinta

Betapa pun jauh pandangan mata
Betapa pun bebas kaki melangkah
Namun terasa diri terpenjara
Oleh suatu ikatan yg tidak ketara

Walau kau cuba menjauhkan diri
Walau kadangkala aku membenci
Namun setiap kali terpandang mu
Kehangatan di hatiku dingin bagai salju

Antara kasih dan kasihan
Antara jemu dan harapan
Biarkanlah di sini
Aku terus begini sendiri

Andainya ada yang dapat mengerti
Gelisah yg datang melanda diri
Masihkah ada rasa cinta
Ataukah sekadar kau berpura-pura

My Prince Charming

I seem to have lost my Prince Charming... AGAIN! This time it's different...I am tired of trying to look for him. Knowing him he'll never find the way back home. Maybe he does not want to come home?
In my happily ever after...it's not suppose to end this way.
Oh well, I am really really tired, physically and mentally...Biakanlah si Luncai terjun dengan labu-labunya.

Fine aku jiwang?! So sue me!

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Weekend

Stayed in Holiday Villa Subang during the weekend so the kids boleh berendam. Tak sampai 5 minit Amir dalam pool, hujan turun. Ayah dia buat pool kat dalam bath tub instead. Amir discovered the robe and beria-ria nak pakai. In his mind...konon konon dia wrestler. Shesssshhhhh....Arif dicovered that he can control the radio from the bed panel. Did not get the picture of him getting busy with it though.

Le Hunt Langkawi

In Langkawi for the weekend for a Treasure Hunt organized by the company. We flew in to LGK, stayed in Holiday Villa, Pantai Tengah and got a Nissan Sentra for our ride. Smoothhhh....
The Hunt was fun but we kinda got "swayed" into going elsewhere which is not in the trail..Heheheheheheh...
Akibat membaca blog Yasmin Ahmad, we went to Four Season Hotel. Fuiyyooooo...mulut tak boleh nak tutup...bukan sebab dok bercakap banyak tapi sebab terpegun ..We wanted to look for the pool tapi sebab hujan....we got stuck at the receiving area je.
Gamaknya, tempayan ni la yang "patpuluh" orang penyamun menyorok masa nak samun Ali Baba.Well,...maybe smaller but if I am one of the penyamun, I'll need this big of a tempayan.
We disqualified ourselves from the hunt when we decided to go up the Gunung Raya cable car. I was laughing hysterically almost all the way akibat gayat...(terbit air mata). the scare was worth it. The view was totally breathtaking. I wish all my love ones were with me at that moment as I doubt I'll brace myself through that ride again! GAYAT! Arwah Abah will never go through it..I am pretty sure about that.
For the coolest people in my Hunt team, for the fun that I had, for my family who let me have fun without them .....I am thankful.

Terima Kasih ,MALAYSIA

Keranamu Malaysia
Buruh, nelayan dan juga petani
Gaya hidup kini dah berubah
Anak-anak terasuh mindanya
Lahir generasi bijak pandai
Pakar IT, pakar ekonomi
Jaguh sukan dan juga jutawan
Berkereta jenama negara
Megah menyusur di jalan raya
Alam cyber teknologi terkini
Kejayaan semakin hampiri
Biar di kota ataupun desa
Kita semua pasti merasa bangga
Keranamu kami mendakap tuah
Keranamu kami bangsa berjaya
Keranamu kami hidup selesa
Limpah budi kemakmuran negara
Keranamu kami bebas merdeka
Keranamu myawa dipertaruhkan
Keranamu rela kami berjuang
Demi bangsa kedaulatan negara
( ulang dari mula )
Keranamu Negara
MalaysiaMalaysia...
Terima kasih Malaysia !

We are going to be 49 tonight. I am thankful for this beautiful, prosperous Malaysia. I am thankful that I am a MALAYSIAN.

To Crocs or not to Crocs?

That is the question...

My dearest Sham,

"I 'm now officially declaring that the watch, you have been wearing since last wed, is now 101% yours, as a gift from me 2 u:)"...I received the email from Yatt at 10.30am 15/07/2006. First thing that crossed my mind was.."Shucks!!! I should have asked for the Bvulgari watch instead!!"...Muahahahahah...that's the ungrateful side of me. The grateful side of me has been thanking my lucky stars hingga saat ini...Am I lucky or what?
For my lucky star...and my generous friend, Yatt...I'm thankful.

Birthday is officially over. Dapat 32 birthday sms from friends & family. Thank you all. Mizuan even have a reminder on his phone. Agak significant jugak rupanya aku ni.
Letih dah jadi 27 tahun…dah masuk 8 tahun dah ni. I think I’ll move up to 28 next year. Please remind me to do that next year.
Solat Maghrib kat Yatt’s place last night. Went through her watch collections. Coach, Tag, Omega, Bvulgari, and a few others…tetiba terselit Follie Follie. The one I have been eyeing for a while but to chicken to purchase.Mahal tu babe! It’t the one that you can change the straps..Yatt’s has 5 straps…black, baby blue, pink, red, green and errr..satu lagi tak ingat. So being friends for 21 years ( I sat next to her in Form 1), roommates in ITM and friends forever, I am entitle to cajole her using my famous Hush Puppies face and pretty pleaseee.. to buy it from her at flea market price. Hey! It’s my birthday after all!. And I am also giving her my new Chanel lipstick yg dia pakai masa wedding dia…fair tak? Don’t have to answer sebab the watch is mine!!!
Balik rumah, I got something in the mail. I got a website template CD from May as my present. Thank you..aku memang nak benda tu..Thank you so very much! After this I shall develop a new template for balloonhub.com.

Moral of the story…”Every cloud has a silver lining”

For all the silver lining in my life…I am thankful.

Happy Birthday to me

This song by Dayangku Intan keeps playing in my head. I have no idea of the title.

Perlukah kau bertanya tentang hatiku
Sedangkan sejak dulu kau telah tahu
Betapa kuterluka oleh perbuatan
Yang tiba di luar jangkaan

Kusangka kau berbangga aku milikmu
Kerana terhadapmu begitu hatiku
Kiranya kau malu untuk mengakui
Yang aku pernah kau sayangi

Tak perlu penjelasan lagi
Tak perlu kau mengambil hati
Tak perlu bertanyakan khabarku
Jawabnya telah kau tahu.

Funny how the person you love so much, can hurt you as much.
I guess this is my birthday present this year. Happy birthday SI. It's just you & me now.
I am thankful for another year, for my health, for my friends who has become sisters that I never had, for my kids, for my job, for myself.

Easy way out

I’ve decided to be bulimic…or anorexic or whichever so I can lose weight. For the kesekian kali a colleague ask me how far I am with my pregnancy. Stoicly I answered, “Nope, I am not pregnant just fat”.
I think it the time of the month…my hormones have extra curricular around this time. I am emotionally haywired.
I had Burger King egg croissantwich for breakfast this morning. As my 1st step towards being bulimic, am I suppose to puke it out or what? Maybe I should go and read more about it first in the internet.
Till then, have a great day.

bad..

Am going thru a low phase in my life. Am having the lowest self esteem i ever felt in my entire whole life. Low self esteem makes you do bad things...really bad things...you don't want to know. I chose to pretend that I don't know how bad it is.

I will Survive

Numb.

Hurt.

Deeply Hurt.

Angry.

Sad.

Pissed Off.

Shattered.

All rolled into one.

Just because of one sick SMS.

I shall forgive but I will NEVER forget!

One thing for sure, the trust is no longer there. You're gonna have to live with that.
23/05/2006

She's so beautiful and I can't seem to stop crying...

Her mom's log on her:
http://viruspadu.fotopages.com/?&page=0

She's the most beautiful baby girl I've ever seen and now she must be the most beautiful angel in heaven.

Alesha Abriza, I hope one day, I am fortunate enough to meet you in heaven.

From Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?"
And he answered saying:
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

"HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY, BABY"
The post is a bit lambat , the actual date is 06/05/2006.

Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup

Sunday. Came back late morning from J's & A's place. Mama attending a kenduri with big bro. Adik out for brunch with friends.Hubby going out for lunch with his BF cum GF, Az. A wants McD. Ask hubby to tapau for us. 2 beef burger and 1 Happy Meal Nugget for A. Wanted to take a cat nap for 20 minutes which turn out to be 2 hours instead. Woke up hungry. Can feel the beef burger in my mouth aredi. Went down, no Beef Burger waiting as A wallop the whole thing to himself. The nugget Happy Meal plus my burger.

Now I know how Mak Tanjung felt when her son, Pekan wallop her portion of telur ikan tembakul.."batu Belah Batu Bertangkup, ambik la aku, makan la aku...aku kempunan nak makan Beef Burger McD"...muahahahahahahah!!

Okay...the drama is over...I went to Picnic food court today for McD Beef Burger but end up eating Spaghetti Olio at Milano Pizza instead. I am thankful for the choice's I have. Kesian kat mak Tanjung...dia takde choice. And A said sorry...he actually have that guilty look on his face. For a 5 years old to feel guilty about eating his mommy's lunch...I am thankful..as I must have taught him right, somehow.

Hopeless Passion for Crab Rangoon

One thing that I miss about America….Crab Rangoon. Sedap gilaaa…especially the one kat Wok Express depan Hardings kat Main St. (i Kalamazoo, Michigan)

I got this from a friend who used to work in a Chinese Restaurant kitchen kat States.

Wantan skin (where to get the big ones ya?)
Cream cheese
Crab meat…artifical also can..
And lots of sugar….to counter the cream cheese saltiness
A dash of pepper

Mix the cream cheese with sugar and then the crab meat, lepas tu pepper.. Put them in the wantan skin then deep fried it.

Sudah sejuk sikit boleh dip with sweet sour sauce.

Pitam.................................2 saat. Life has never been the same...ever...

(Crab Rangoon photograph © copyright 2005 by Rhonda Parkinson)

Amir likes a girl

Her name is Amira..

Sweet kan? Amir & Amira….

Wakakakakakakaka…

I was printing cards last night and he wanted to have one for Amira because yesterday they celebrated her birthday at school.
And today he woke up early excited to go to school sebab nak bagi the card to her..and showing off to everybody even to Arif.

Arif is more interested in putting it in his mouth. Amir frown at Arif and he gave Amir the widest adoring grin.

I am truly blessed.

(Imagine if 28 years down the road if they got married, should I start preparing for the bunga telur aredi aaa??? Muahahahahahaha!!!)

Mug- mugku

A friend of mine ordered the whole set for her home. Bestnya!And I got a trans. job ...translating about call centre...(finally something that I am familiar with)....and I now realize there's an add image feature untuk blogging.( yeah..I know...ignorance can be quite powerful..) So many reason to be thankful....and especially, thank you for my friends yang membawa rezeki ini ke muka pintuku. Alhamdulillah.

I Am A a Boston Creme Donut

You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you.But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft.You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily.You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out.

I always love boston Creme Donut. And it's what I wanna be if I am a donut. oh well? Cita cita yang sungguh tidak memberangsangkan.

My third entry for today..

You must be wondering,"Tak kerja ke Minah ni?" Kerjaaaa....but I rather be somewhere else. Forgive me it's Monday. I am going thru a Monday Blues which has turned into a bright purple after lunch tadi.

To be exact, i rather be in Bali. To be more precise, I wanna be in the open concept bathroom of the Padi Prada Resort & Spa. Not that I've been there or anything, I only saw the photo in another blog. Macam best ajeee...

That's it!! By hook or by crook, I am going to Bali this year. Kuta... Ubud...Tanah Lot...Ubud shopping baazar (or whatever it is called)...here I come.

Anyone wants to finance my vacation? I promise I'll buy you a souvenir....

Almost got hit...

while trying to cross the road after lunch tadi. The Hyundai Sonata (Jag wannabe..or was it the other way round?) didn't stop at the Zebra crossing. You want a zebra to actually cross baru nak stop ke? Bongok! Beli kereta mahal mahal tapi courtesy sikit pun tak dak. Tak tengok ke kat luar ni panas lit-lit?...hang sitting in the car with the aircond and all...no harm in stopping for like 5 kali kelip mata. Ngok!
Oh!..on the other note, EM paid me RM 60 for 3 Valentine's delivery I did for him last week. Ahaks!!! Bestnye...I think I'll take leave again next year and do Valentine delivery je... Buat apa penat badan buat delivery untuk business sendiri which is almost non existence. Asyik aku je yang terhegeh hegeh.
I am RM 60 richer...minus RM 20 for the gas. Oraitkan? Maybe I should do delivery services for the florists in KL. I can even buy my Yellow color Kangoo Renault, kan?
Hehehe...I love my ideas...sometimes I can be so brilliant and vain all in one breath. Ahaks... For that , I am thankful.

On the way to work,

I saw a boy, no bigger than Arif (Arif is 8 months), sleeping upright, nestled in between his parents on a kapchai. Sebak..I felt a huge lump in my throat..I think my saliva just turn into a stone...
And I thought of my kids, in the backseat of my Honda Civic, snugly in their baby car seats. Thank you Allah..for the privilege...I am thankful.