I will Survive

Numb.

Hurt.

Deeply Hurt.

Angry.

Sad.

Pissed Off.

Shattered.

All rolled into one.

Just because of one sick SMS.

I shall forgive but I will NEVER forget!

One thing for sure, the trust is no longer there. You're gonna have to live with that.
23/05/2006

She's so beautiful and I can't seem to stop crying...

Her mom's log on her:
http://viruspadu.fotopages.com/?&page=0

She's the most beautiful baby girl I've ever seen and now she must be the most beautiful angel in heaven.

Alesha Abriza, I hope one day, I am fortunate enough to meet you in heaven.

From Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?"
And he answered saying:
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

"HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY, BABY"
The post is a bit lambat , the actual date is 06/05/2006.

Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup

Sunday. Came back late morning from J's & A's place. Mama attending a kenduri with big bro. Adik out for brunch with friends.Hubby going out for lunch with his BF cum GF, Az. A wants McD. Ask hubby to tapau for us. 2 beef burger and 1 Happy Meal Nugget for A. Wanted to take a cat nap for 20 minutes which turn out to be 2 hours instead. Woke up hungry. Can feel the beef burger in my mouth aredi. Went down, no Beef Burger waiting as A wallop the whole thing to himself. The nugget Happy Meal plus my burger.

Now I know how Mak Tanjung felt when her son, Pekan wallop her portion of telur ikan tembakul.."batu Belah Batu Bertangkup, ambik la aku, makan la aku...aku kempunan nak makan Beef Burger McD"...muahahahahahahah!!

Okay...the drama is over...I went to Picnic food court today for McD Beef Burger but end up eating Spaghetti Olio at Milano Pizza instead. I am thankful for the choice's I have. Kesian kat mak Tanjung...dia takde choice. And A said sorry...he actually have that guilty look on his face. For a 5 years old to feel guilty about eating his mommy's lunch...I am thankful..as I must have taught him right, somehow.

Hopeless Passion for Crab Rangoon

One thing that I miss about America….Crab Rangoon. Sedap gilaaa…especially the one kat Wok Express depan Hardings kat Main St. (i Kalamazoo, Michigan)

I got this from a friend who used to work in a Chinese Restaurant kitchen kat States.

Wantan skin (where to get the big ones ya?)
Cream cheese
Crab meat…artifical also can..
And lots of sugar….to counter the cream cheese saltiness
A dash of pepper

Mix the cream cheese with sugar and then the crab meat, lepas tu pepper.. Put them in the wantan skin then deep fried it.

Sudah sejuk sikit boleh dip with sweet sour sauce.

Pitam.................................2 saat. Life has never been the same...ever...

(Crab Rangoon photograph © copyright 2005 by Rhonda Parkinson)